But I even don't know, whether I can say ''Merry Xmas!'' to him face to face or not.
I really wanted only to play. But when I saw him, I knew immediately, that I can find my dream with him together. I had never got such a feeling before I knew him. I want to change my life for him. But I know, that he doesn't want it. So I must follow my destiny, leave him and create my future alone.